Christmas has come and gone. It is amazing to me how much preparation goes into to one day each year. We spend hours preparing food and wrapping presents to have it all be over is a matter of minutes. But in the end to see the smiles on the face of my loved ones when they taste the food or unwrap there presents.

Santa was very good to us this year. There were two separate occasions when gifts were anonymously left on our porch. Once just for the kids and the last time for me and mom as well. That is two years in a row that we have had surprise presents on my porch. I remember a time when I was able to do that for other people and now it happens to me. I am humbled and grateful to whom ever left those gifts...it really made the boys Christmas.

New Years is coming soon and so a new start. I hope that things go better in 2010 then they did in 2009. Only time will tell I guess.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

Hello world! It's been a while since my last post but I wanted to get my Christmas wishes and family update posted. This last year has been anything but perfect but we have survived it and hope to have a better 2010. A year full of lots and ups and downs.

Keefe is 5 years old going on 30. He has such and old soul and a great understanding of the world around him and expresses himself far beyond his years. He started Kindergarten and is doing well is school. All of his classmates like him and he is progressing every day. He loves being a big brother and is just about the best big brother on the planet.
He loves to play with Kaden and help me take care of him. He is always willing to show Kaden how to do things he isn't good at yet and sharing his toys.

Kaden is by far my handful. He is so mischievous. I ask him not to do something and he gives me this side ways look and continues to push it to see how far he can go before mommy gets really mad. It is terrible but also so cute. It's a struggle not to laugh at him when I am trying to drive home a point.
He absolutely loves Football and enjoys watching the entire game with me and Grandma on Sunday and Monday Nights. He throws his hands in the air when you say touchdown and gets a huge smile on his face. He is talking more and more everyday and has the most infectious laugh i have ever heard. You can't help but smile and join in when that little bundle of spit fire starts to laugh.

This year has been the bumpiest for me this year but I am hanging in there and surviving. I still haven't found a job since getting fired in September but I am trying my hand at Network Marketing with Donald Trump. It is slow starting but kind of like a snow ball rolling down hill.
I am happy and have my health so I have no place to go but up from here. I have made some great friends in my on-line dating quest and hope to continue allowing those friendships blossom.

I guess that is everything I had to say so Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone. I hope your holidays are full of love and happiness!

Rain drops are falling on my head!

The post today isn't as happy as previous posts. I got FIRED last friday. I have never been fired before and have felt rather worthless and useless the last few days. I am currently on the hunt for a job so if anyone has any tips please let me know.

In happier news the boys are doing great. Keefe went to Karate today and was so proud of the fact that he has the best balance of the white belts in his class. His instructor was impressed enough to mention it after class. I guess all that jumping around on one foot really paid off!

Went to the Doctor with Kaden today for his 15 month check up. He is healthy as a horse, aside from a small ear infection. He got two shots but took them like a trooper..he always does. He is the bravest happiest little guy! I couldn't ask for a better kid if I tried. Keefe was even impressed with his brother getting shots. He told me he thought Kaden "was very brave, cause when I got shots they had to hold me down. He was very relaxed" How cute is that!

Well that is all for today.

Swimming at midnight

I love life sometimes. After a great night eating out and catching up with friends (you girls are the best) I went by work to grab my computer for so much needed wined down time before bed. I had actually planned on watching an episode of my favorite show Leverage. I got to work and went to find the keys that my co-worker misplaced and ran into some tenants.

I really enjoy my tenants and would spend lots of time with them if I lived at Remington. It's probably a really good idea that I don't live there. I was making my way to my car around 11:45 and walked into an even bigger group of tenants. Anyone who knows me, already knows this is trouble because I am very social especially with people I know and like. Five minutes at work had already turned into an hour and it didn't look to be ending any time soon.

Before I knew it my tenants were asking, no daring me to jump into the pool. I was dressed is a collared shirt and jeans and started taking my keys out of my pocket and my phone off my belt. At that point they still didn't think I was actually going to do it. Next thing they knew my flip flops were on the ground and I was running full bore toward the pool. I jumped in, fully clothed glasses and all! It felt wonderful.

My tenants really love when I do stuff like that. I think it surprises them sometimes how crazy can be. I have two kids and a husband under my belt (ex-husband) and so they sometimes think I am older than I am. It surprises most of them to find out that I am not much older than they are.

I love surprising people and getting wet. Tonight was the perfect combination.

Update on life

Wow! It feels like forever since I wrote anything on my blog. Probably because it has been forever. So much has happened! Where do I start.

I got Keefe completely registered for Kindergarten. It is so weird to think that I have a child old enough to start school. He is so excited too. He knows it just after his birthday that school starts so he asks me everyday "mommy is tomorrow my birthday?" He actually started crying today on the way home from daycare because his birthday is "taking too long". He is my sensitive kid and make me laugh at least once a day with how he over reacts to everything. I have know idea where that came from....J/K He's just like his mom.

Kaden started walking this weekend! Big news I know! He still wont walk at daycare which I think is funny. I think he is afraid of getting knocked down by the other kids in his class. Unlike his brother Kaden is one of the smallest kids in class so he gets picked on quite a bit. He did walk to me to go home today so that was fun for the afternoon teachers. I'll have to try again in the morning so the morning teachers can see it too. It is so cute. He holds his arms out like he is walking on a tight rope and takes the smallest little "baby steps" you could imagine. But once he gets started you see his confidence build and he quits thinking about it and then he can really move. I know that in a week from now I'll be complaining that I can't keep up with him and that he is running the halls at church.

It's funny really. We spend the first 2-3 years of our children's lives teaching them how to walk and talk and the rest of there lives telling them to sit down and shut up. Ironic isn't it. And for those of you who don't have walkers and talkers yet...you just wait.

I guess my last bit of exciting news is that my divorce is final. The judge signed the papers today so mark it on your calendar. I got married on the 5th of August 2003 and divorced on July 15th 2009. It would have been really funny if the Judge had waited until the 5th of August to sign. Then we would have been married for 6 years officially.

I can't believe how relieved i am to be done with it all. I have come full circle in my life. From being a "molly mormon" to a hell raiser back to an active member (not quite so molly mormon though) There are still of few areas of my life that I need to work on but it will come one day at a time. I don't know if I will ever be the same person I was in high school but I know that I will be the best I can be now. Life experience has changed me and I understand now what is really important and I don't waste my time "sweating the small stuff". I don't care what other people think of me anymore. I am happy with me and the rest will come.

I think that is all for today so LATE!

Kaden Turned 1!!!!!

Yesterday, my little boy turned one year old. I can't believe it has been a year already. My how time flies. The party was a lot of fun. All my closest friends and family came. I was so glad my two best friends from Ogden could drive down. It was fun to see Audrey, my friend Nicole's baby. She is adorable.

Kaden has to be the cutest thing on two feet next to his older brother. Yes, call me prejudice I love my boys. It was fun to see Kaden open his present. He was a little timid at first but once he got the hang of pulling the paper and hearing his favorite rip sound and realized he WASN'T getting in trouble for tearing paper for a change he was all in. I don't know about what he wanted but he got everything I wanted.

My grandparents gave him a ride and walk. It's one of those things they can ride on and then it converts to a walker. He likes walking more that riding. Big surprise there. His older brother Keefe, gave him a glow worm. I had one of those when I was a kid and remember sleeping with it until I was nine or so. He got so much he didn't know quite what to play with.

The best part was the cake. Oh My Gosh!! I didn't think anything could be so funny!! Again he started out timid but once he got a taste of the frosting it was handfuls at a time. We were all laughing so hard. Then, when he tried to get up and crawl across the room, I said, "Kaden, no no." cause we didn't want frosting all over the carpet so he sat down right on the cake!!! Let me tell you if you have a child that is about to turn one, get them a cake they can destroy, IT IS WORTH IT!!! Plus, if you go to your local Albertson's and tell them you need a cake for a one year old it's free.

Well I guess that is all for now. I will post pictures as soon as I get them developed. I couldn't find the charge for my camera and had to use plain old film!

lets get started.

I have decided to try and do this blog in an effort to stay in better touch with those close to me. It is a way we can share thoughts, quotes, funny things and photos. I will try to update this on a weekly basis so you can all share in what is going on in my life.

To catch up anyone who doesn'tknow already....I am getting a divorce. We should have all the paper work filied by the 18th and the divorce will hopefully be finial by the middle of July. For anyone who is interested in my side. I can try to explain why I have made this decision.

After we went to the temple it just seemed like Matt's heart wasn't into living the gospel life he had coventened to live. He was still smoking and trying to hide it from me and just not living the way he should. I won't go into too much detail because this blog was not designed to bash him. Needless to say I realized the gap between us is just too much to breach.

I know that people are disappointed in me for making Matt leave even when he didn't have place to go to. We had agreed at the begining of May that he would be out by the end of the month. He had almost 30 full days to find a place to live but he would come home from work and sleep and not take whatever he could find. It had to be a house, not an apartment. I understand that he is not happy in an apartment but it could have worked for a temporary solution instead of living in hotels and out of his bronco.

Please do not blame me for the position he finds himself in. It was his choices that got him where he is and I refuse to take the blame.

I will try and post some pictures tomorrow. Pease to you all for the night.